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okay, last night was officially the greatest night ever. I had my two bests over here. right now their dating, which i have to admit is cuuuute. but anyways.. were all really close. so my mom is out of town for a while. and we have always used my house as a safe-haven, its weird. so we slep here last night. i got rugburn all down my ass and my arm from tyler dragging me across the carpet is shorts. haha. i miss those two when they leave.. I went to a birthday party for cate's boyfriend and binged on these cupcakes shaped as hearts, i had like 3 no lie. so i came home and felt a little like poop. so thats goneee. not much else. heres some pics from like two days ago of me. 
hips <3 
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i haven't updated in a while. But i made it to my second goal of 100lbs. i guess its because i don't really know what to put in here half the time. cause i don't really want this to be like a journal of what i eat everyday.
i really want this to be for advice. advice for girls [and maybe even some guys] that are struggling the same struggle with me everyday of their lives. I want this to be a place where people can come for inspiration. I know this disorder isn't glamorous. and i sometimes i wonder whats going to happen to my body, and how long it's going to be until i loose my teeth. but all my mind is saying is thin, thin. thin is what you need. so all the negative fades away behind the loudest voice. and the voice is always there. i'm thinking you know exactly what i'm talking about
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And everyone who thinks iv'e stopped, and have been keeping my meals down. they don't know that i still go to be every night with my throat still burning from stomach acid. and i feel so bad for lying, but i'm only trying to protect them from me.
but anyways.. I want people to come here and ask me for advice. thats what i'm here for i guess. we all need to help each other in one way or another. and it just so happens, this is the only thing i'm good at.
if you need anything, i'm here.
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| today i decided to eat dinner.
butt..
ive purged 4 times today.
i'm a girl, i'm only sixteen. my body rots cause I won't fucking eat.
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